Monday, June 9, 2008
-9:35:00 PM

why do special people change in my life,
are they just scared to live,
or r they just bored of living,

i close one change drastically,
she start to smoke and drink heavily,
when she was the 1 who asked me to stop doing all that,
and nw??

it reli is disheartening to see her that way,
can you imagine watching someone you care just
sucked down the whirlpool

i reli hate having this feeling of guilt,
i hope i can change her but i paused,
took a look at myself and turned away..

i myself had changed,
i saw her face staring towards,
wished i could just smile,
but i hung my head low and just walked past..

i knew that i couldn't go on like this,
but what can i do,
just keep dodging her eyes?
till when??

thoes eyes just kept rewinding in my head,
i wish i could erase it away,
and yes i did,
by drinking with my freinds till i drop

drank vodkas and gins
woke up at a fitness corner at 8 aM
in my werk uniform..so sad la seh..
but i did 4gt her

for a while

at night went dwn werk place..n she was there..
so ya these things go around again
n there is just something bout her tonight
she didnt smile or laugh

tot by nt bothering her,
she would smile once more
but no

wished i could asked wats wrong.
but i know she wouldnt listen
n ya.
ive changed