i met her when i was in secondary school, she was the big i sister i nvr had, but she was too good to be ma sis, n so shes ma baby,
we were so tight back then, like nothing can split us,
well thats what i tot of course,
an incident broke out and i was left paralyssed in dismay, i couldnt believe it, i couldnt accepted it, so we are done and she gt married,
do you reli move on when you dnt tink of her, den suddenly she came back into the pic, and a rush of mixed feelings follows,
contacted back and she told me how bad was her marriage, and how she regretted leaving me, i symphatise her but, is it just symphatise?
i dont know.. left me with an empty mind these few days i tot i lost her and now, she almost back at me,
if she goes again this tyme, isit losing her again? or just gaining back old memories?
i dont know.. found someone who can reli fill me, her laughter and her behaviour, sets her apart..
would i lose her if i ponder on it too much? or would i lose my 1st love if i go wit this gal? i dont know..
wrote ma last post as to make me feel better how things bout people saying her adulterous when she just met me.. her old lil bro..
but as i write that post.. my heart felt heavy..
was i reli hoping to move on.. or am i just hurting maself with the blades of memory.. i just dont know..
i hope she has moved on cause i dnt want her, to be in between, dont want her to think the past..
niwaes hurt maself 2dae saket gile.. but no1 seemed to care
so sad but ive lived with it for sometime oliadi.. at this age,i shouldnt be tripping over little2 things.. i shold be more open and try to take in more stuffs..
sori for thoes ive hurt sori for the misunderstanding or misconception
im just human
n yana..take care of your husbnd and my little cute zulaisha eh
papa promise bring you eat pizza k
wish i had a child in my own haiz
sori 4 making you listen to all this, but i just dnt know wher to turn
