Monday, September 29, 2008
sounds of fire crackers, smell of laughter and you could just taste that it is all coming to the end. this is where everyone is excited about but not me.
i still remember where i was at the last house in Commenwealth we use to get the preparations one week before the day itself. weave the ketupat, getting the charcoal fired, putting up the new curtains we just bought from the famous Geylang pasar. trying on our new baju kurong. throwing fire crackers from the 10th floor down aiming at the big tree hoping to make it burn.(it didnt). every malay in the block would gather at my 2nd storey apartment and putting order on how many bunch of ketupat they want and its free. even if we were like enemys throughout the year, on that particular day, we were family.
i truly miss thoes days. now that special day is still special as in its double pay at piza hut and im working 12 hours. cool. no spring cleaning and all. no hectic trying to make the deadline kueh making competition. no new baju kurong. no ketupat. no following mum to the pasar to get fish which i hate but i miss doing it, i dont know why.
third day of raya, ma mums gona go for her surgery, have to skip skool for that. recite yasin there. i reli hope she gets well and that no hiccups along the way. i am really greatful for you mama. you have done alot of things. once i thought that friends can take care of me but im wrong mama. im wrong. i need you more than ever. you are the only person on this earth i can talk to. everyone just leaves. but dont you. i reali need you. ill miss thoes patting and advice which i never head. its just breaks me down to see you in this state still trying to make a living for us. just stop would you. i will take care for you. ill drive you around in my shiny car if you make it. ill make you the happiest person in the world. ill buy you a condo. ill get you to the holy land. ill never get married till i achieve all that. i promise mama. i promise. im in class and im crying just at the thought of it.im not that strong after all
