Wednesday, November 12, 2008
although words that come out from me are harsh
the actions i do are hurtful
my heart still longs for your presence
When your mind ain't right, and it's hard to sleep
And you try to hide the pain, but your scars are deep
look me in my eyes and tell me what you see
i realise that everytime i see your face, theres a part of me that cant bare to let you go
dont you know it..
Tuesday, November 4, 2008
me and the easily frighten sabrina
me and lil' Karen(baobei)
me and the gals
the only guy in the group
i took this pic..nice
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
Dedy uses judgment to make decisions. He is ruled by his head, not his heart. He is a cool, collected person who is usually unexpressive emotionally. Some may see him as unemotional. He does have emotions but has no need to express them. He is withdrawn into himself and enjoys being alone.
The circumstances when Dedy does express emotions include: extreme anger, extreme passion, and tremendous stress. If someone gets him mad enough to tell him off, he will not be sorry about it later. He puts a mark in his mind when someone angers him. He keeps track of these marks and when he hits that last mark he will let them know they have gone too far. He is ruled somewhat by self-interest. All his conclusions are made without outside emotional influence. He is very level-headed and will remain calm in an emergency situation. In a situation where other people might get hysterical, he has poise.
Dedy will work more efficiently if given space and time to be alone. He would rather not be surrounded by people constantly. In a relationship, he will show his love by the things he does rather than by the things he says. Saying "I love you" is not a needed routine because he feels his mate should already know. The only exception to this is if he has logically concluded that it is best for his mate to hear him express his love verbally.
Dedy is not subject to emotional appeals. If someone is selling a product to him, they will need to present only the facts. They should present them from a standpoint of his sound judgment. He will not be taken in by an emotional story about someone else. He will meet emergencies without getting hysterical and he will always ask "Is this best for me?"
People that write their letters in an average height and average size are moderate in their ability to interact socially. According to the data input, Dedy doesn't write too large or too small, indicating a balanced ability to be social and interact with others.
Dedy will demand respect and will expect others to treat him with honor and dignity. Dedy believes in his ideas and will expect other people to also respect them. He has a lot of pride.
Dedy will be candid and direct when expressing his opinion. He will tell them what he thinks if they ask for it, whether they like it or not. So, if they don't really want his opinion, don't ask for it!
In reference to Dedy's mental abilities, he has a very investigating and creating mind. He investigates projects rapidly because he is curious about many things. He gets involved in many projects that seem good at the beginning, but he soon must slow down and look at all the angles. He probably gets too many things going at once. When Dedy slows down, then he becomes more creative than before. Since it takes time to be creative, he must slow down to do it. He then decides what projects he has time to finish. Thus he finishes at a slower pace than when he started the project.
He has the best of two kinds of minds. One is the quick investigating mind. The other is the creative mind. His mind thinks quick and rapidly in the investigative mode. He can learn quicker, investigate more, and think faster. Dedy can then switch into his low gear. When he is in the slower mode, he can be creative, remember longer and stack facts in a logical manner. He is more logical this way and can climb mental mountains with a much better grip.
Dedy is a practical person whose goals are planned, practical, and down to earth. This is typical of people with normal healthy self-esteem. He needs to visualize the end of a project before he starts. he finds joy in anticipation and planning. Notice that I said he plans everything he is going to do, that doesn't necessarily mean things go as planned. Dedy basically feels good about himself. He has a positive self-esteem which contributes to his success. He feels he has the ability to achieve anything he sets his mind to. However, he sets his goals using practicality-- not too "out of reach". He has enough self-confidence to leave a bad situation, yet, he will not take great risks, as they relate to his goals. A good esteem is one key to a happy life. Although there is room for improvement in the confidence catagery, his self-perception is better than average.
Dedy is very self-sufficient. He is trying not to need anyone. He is capable of making it on his own. He probably wants and enjoys people, but he doesn't "need" them. He can be a loner.
as nearing thoes doors, heartbeat count down to the moment of truth
as i open thoes doors, tears starts to fill my eye bank.
i close it back. a few deep breathes later. im in..
seeing her in that condition. just breaks my heart. lying, eyes close. as if i can feel her pain.
i lightly hold her hand. she twitched. i whole world just stops there and then. shes than come to life and how relieved i was. spoke slowly. looking at the scar and the staples that are holding thoes skin together. i just broke more.
i just wish shes alright and hope that this ends her suffering or maybe most of it.
and the last isnt about who ever you hink it is. it is on someone who doesnt read my blog. sorry if you get caught in the heat.
Labels: mama, she
Monday, October 20, 2008
and the sad thing is, you never even ask
isnt it nice to have someone there like now. when you need someone to hold your hand and never let go when she herself has probs. where we put one another ahead before ourself. where we share a world to ourself with no one else is there.
its a shame that all this while ive been taking girls i knew as close friends rather than special. while special people to me just leaves. i dont care if you dnot talk to me, ignore me kos maybe this shows that im wrong. wrong about everything thats hapening.
maybe its my luck that i have to go through this all by myself. im a man on my own. but its hard opening up to one gal and suddenly youre not that close anymore. and you drift. and everything settles like the tide. people who are not there are the people that do not share a world with you. people who has their own world. people who are not really there for you. people who just listens. people who are just people. i need someone special. too bad i guess.
Friday, October 17, 2008
Well if I die tonight
I wonder Where I'll be tomorrow
Nobody cry please
Push away the sorrow
'Cause I ain't been
The best of men
The best of friends
The best of mom
And mamas first son
The best of anything
Tell Nana here's a last one
If I die tonight
Would I be forgiven
By all the people I been slackin
with When I was livin?
Those who I hurt their hearts
Took advantage of
And even lied to
Hug you one last time
For forgiveness Yeah I would like to
If I die tonight
Would you feel the loss?
Tomorrow would you dial
My number by accident
Then suddenly... pause?
If I die tonight
I wonder who would get
To keep my flip flops and shoes
Jerseys, even my little Stuffed crocodile Coco too
Get my cell phone Message everyone from A to Z
Tell 'em this ain't Dedy
He passed away last night
And pray he rest in peace
If I die tonight
Would you think of my room
When you see blue
Wanted to clean it up this morning
But then I never knew
If I die tonight
What would happen to you
How long would it take Before she kissed another man?
... God damn...
At the brim of boredom
would she be there and sing with me
Things I wish I knew...
Labels: her, mama, she