-6:08:00 PM

People say that the eye is the window to the soul. This is quite true. But when I look into yours, I’m just lost in it. I do not know what is going on inside. Maybe you are still in a state of denial. U needs someone there to sub him. But I too am confused. I just can’t get you to see that I am someone who is ready for you. But I think you want to give him a second chance. Maybe I should have not been too attached to your warmness. I need you every second. You’re the reason I go to places I hate. But I know you care. Maybe we shouldn’t be too close because I might be hurt without you realizing it. Someone yesterday told me in the wee morning that I have to make the first move. But what can I do. And he says that what happens if you are destined for this girl and you don’t make the first move. You might lose this only chance and never meet her again. But I think to myself that if we are meant for each other. Then maybe we will, if not now, later. But can I wait that long I pondered. Will the chance only come when im with another person and would I hurt her or would I hurt you the most. Maybe I should make the first move.

And to shidaa. If you are reading this, I am sorry for what had ever happen. and sorry for me to take too long initiate a first move. It will take time before we can talk like nothing happened. Lets just wait ya girl. And i do miss you and you voice. Haha. Every time you laugh, I hope that it was my joke you were laughing at. Good luck on your exam next week..hemm

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-12:20:00 PM

Dear Holly, I don't have much time. I don't mean literally, I mean you're out buying ice cream and you'll be home soon. But I have a feeling this is the last letter, because there is only one thing left to tell you. It isn't to go down memory lane or make you buy a lamp, you can take care of yourself without any help from me. It's to tell you how much you move me, how you changed me. You made me a man, by loving me Holly. And for that, I am eternally grateful... literally. If you can promise me anything, promise me that whenever you're sad, or unsure, or you lose complete faith, that you'll try to see yourself through my eyes. Thank you for the honor of being my wife. I'm a man with no regrets. How lucky am I. You made my life, Holly. But I'm just one chapter in yours. There'll be more. I promise. So here it comes, the big one. Don't be afraid to fall in love again. Watch out for that signal, when life as you know it ends. P.S. I will always love you.

adapted from the movie P.S. I LOVE YOU

P.S. Guess What
you are the one that makes me whole
but i dnt wish to write you a final letter

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-1:33:00 PM

im just happy that you finally found your answer.. i cant bare to see you sad and shedding thoes tears.. let it be ya rite..its just not meant to be.. and i do not want to hurt you further with my vague saying and all.. ive hurt you enough.. you will find happiness in what you do and rainbows are awaiting for you..

youll just be a post in my diary which i would read back on when im in bed with a soft light shining from above. i cant write any longer..im done

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-11:31:00 PM

aper saje..im reli tired of people accusing when they dont know a thing..thers alot of people like this in ma life..aniwaes gd to know what that now rather den later..ive been parrying what people saed bout you..but now i know what they mean..

im not dat much affected by your departure..n people dont care bout me??boy??grow up lah eh..u were the one getting all excited..n im a liar nw??haha..after i helped u thru werk life..

maybe izzat was true..dnt worry..ill never check up ur blog..go chase watever..wen u grow up.you will realise that theres more to live than just urself..

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its twitches ma fren, twitches..i dont reli mind la kos i know that you are still young and do not know what the world is out there..go find yourself a ship and go sailing where the horizon lies..and i too had been lying to u n myself..well let it only be known to me ya gerl..n please dnt tell people what ive told when for a moment there i tot you are true to your werds..werds are not the same as it was used to..the phrase "ill hold on to ur werds" are no longer valid..n yesterday, i ddnt get the irritation because of you my fren..there are stiil alot of gal like you in my life..bt theres only one gal 4 me..n its not you..fortunately or unfortunately i must say..

i hope you find what life is and maybe you will know ho vague love is..love=sayang..dnt throw that werd around eh..your word sayang would have low value in the end..i never reli intiated anything btw us..all along its been about you..you have the last say..so if you want to have it this way..have it den..just dnt turn back..just dont..i dont wana get these little prick which is worth nothing..nothing at all..i stil hope you all the best..all the best..

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-9:37:00 AM

my hopes are like a kite,
you hold on tight to it,
dnt wish to let go,
dnt wish to bring it near to you..

it dances with the wind,
you pull it,you release it,
you dont know if you wana set it high,
or just keep it low..

i feel like its being played with,
you give me hope,but you take it away,
will you take me home or cut the string,
or you just take me to entertain you..

i dnt mind shielding you from the sun,
but i cant do much,
i dnt mind making you giggle the whole day,
dats all i can do..

Time and again the doubts come along
But why let them stay?
Everyone's far from who they could be
We're all on our way
Days we were strong we remember well, yeah
Days we were scared, we live and learn
Ask me the way and I will point above
No matter what, that where I turn
That where I turn

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-3:38:00 PM

like a vase
when things are broken..its broken
even if you put them back together,
there is still some fine line,
prove of it shaterring..

people who so see ur vase
might miss the crack,
but you noe,you noe its there
you just dnt feel the same

but its better to see it as a whole once more,
kos bits of pieces are just too many to count..

you get what you get,
and you dnt get upset,

yesterdays history,
tomorrows a mystery,
for todaes a gift,
thats why they kol it present..
(kung fu panda)

taxn for being there for me ya
eventhough you know that you are just one of them
you still kept strong
you just listened on..

thank you very much

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